the last planned forever shawl done

I finished the last planned forever shawl today.  Miss D, who saw it while I was making it, said green is her favorite color.  I lucked out in the picking of the yarn.

It is going to be interesting not having this at work to work on.  I am going to have to take one of the two sweaters I am working in.

While I was making this shawl, I shattered my bone crochet hook on Papaw's floor.  I came home and had a bamboo of the same size and there was just too much friction.  I ordered myself a Furls crochet hook that is supposed to help hand health.  I am hoping because I have been very hard on my hands lately.  It translates all the way up into my shoulder, back, and neck.  I have the aluminum hook to use until the Furls comes because that is how horrible the bamboo is.

I found it interesting that today I finished this shawl.  Interesting in a sad way.  My Grandmother died last night.  104.  She was in hospice and I knew death would be soon.  I know she lived a lovely adventurous life.  But that does not mean I did not hurt a bit at the news and I am just sad.

I realized today it is not okay to be sad in our society.  When people ask how I am and I say said, they try to cheer me up.  Tell me 104 is a long life.  She saw so many things and changes.  I would have to agree with that.  But I can be sad that the person who helped teach me to crochet and sew is not here to see what I make.  Or see Koda Bear grow.  Or find out what happens with the Tall Short Person next. 

In many ways, I want to be both my grandmothers when I grow up.  But I am sad.  And that is fine.