balance

Balance has been hard to find.  

My Mom having cancer has been interesting.  The biggest hurdles we are facing currently is that the team of doctors she is working with are having a difficult time coming up with the origin of the cancer.  The big deal about that is different cancers have different treatments and respond better to some treatments then others.  It causes stress.  

I have told my Mom I am there for what she needs.  She asks and I will try to make it happen.  I am trying to keep my emotions out of it because it is not about me.  It is about my Mom.  But I will say that it is interesting how old patterns that I thought were broken come to the fore.

Part of finding balance for me is trying to continue doing what I do.  I find Mondays I work on my mending pile.  There were four pairs of pants that needed to be mended in that pile this week.  Yes, I am being cheap but I am also quietly stitching.  Like spinning, it can be a place of meditation.  And I am being productive.

The creative is interesting right now.  I am being pulled in a couple different directions.  My creative with textiles and fiber and creative for the boyos knife making business.  Some of that is still textiles and fiber because I am working on chef rolls.  Some of it is working in wood.  I now get asked questions every time a wood question comes up.

The sharpening truck may be taking a different path.  I am putting it on hold currently.  And it is a good thing because it is cold outside.  There are not usually freezes this time of year but we are under a freeze warning for tonight.  

I will just keep moving forward.