celebration

I have come to realize celebrating right now is hard.  

I am another year older.  The movie I was going to see was not released due to COVID19.  I chose to stay home instead of going camping.  I did concrete surf up and down my block.  The most I have left the house recently is walking.  I did miss my Mom.  She always remembered.

I do not feel like I am suffering from anxiety or worrying too hard but I do find my chest is very tight.  It did not help that I had a fairly bad allergy attack early this week.  I would love to go camping and walk through the mountains or go to the beach and surf.  But no.  Maybe later this year.

My celebration is just being grateful.  Grateful that my Dad seems well but is bored.  Grateful that no one in my family is sick.  Grateful that the friends I reach out to are healthy.  I know this could change.  So I am grateful for today.

And I may just make myself a pumpkin pie soon.  And when the live action Mulan comes out to the theater, I am going.